Erica Marie's MindSay Blog

!First Entry!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-05T05:07:54-05:00

Yeah so, this is my first entry. How Exciting! Yeah, whatever...anyway, I'm about ready to eat some dinner then I'm off to Travis'. I have to go to WalMart to develope some pictures I took @ Lake Keystone. (I'm still so sun burned) But Yeah anyway, this entry isn't the most exciting but oh well, if you don't like it don't read it :) I need to go call Heather too, I missed out on partying w/ her yesterday and I'm so bummed :( Ok so I'm off. Catcha Later! Ciao!

!Alotta Pics!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-06T06:07:13-05:00

Alright so I got my pics developed from the lake, and I'm putting them up for your viewing pleasure! Oh and also I have a few pics from the rest of my Senior year that you may enjoy.

This is Travis & AJ getting ready to tube

Travis & AJ tubing. Travis's dad isn't very kind to them when they are tubing. They recieved quite a thrashing. But it was funny to watch!

AJ always seems to have this same expression on his face. When he's sad, happy, bored, mad, gassy, excited, nervous, anxious, etc. Oh and the expression on Travis' face is equally amusing.

Travis and I look great in this pic. My nose is burned and my makeup is horrid, and Travis just looks...well...red.

Ok now that you have seen all of my pictures from Lake Keystone lets take a walk through my Senior year beginning w/ Homecoming...

So yeah here I am riding in a BMW Z4 (no big deal) It was probably about 137 degrees out that day during the parade and my car just so happened to be black so I was sweltering. But I still had fun...even though Jon took up most of the comfortable space!

This is me at my house right before I left to go up to the football field. I was so excited if you can't tell. I picked a yellow dress b/c most of the other girls were wearing darker colors, so i went for a color that would make me stand out *also I look REALLY tan in yellow and that dress was only $20*

This picture of me is really weird, my eyes are all squinty and the sun is shining right on me but I was so nervous about messing up or tripping while getting out of my car.

So here I am trying to menuever my way out of the car while holding a bouquet of large roses and trying not to snag my dress w/ my heels. As you can see Jon offered quite a bit of assistance, well I guess he DID open the door for me.

Ok so I didnt win queen but my heterosexual life partner did and thats good enough. I still had a blast getting to go through all the festivities.

Ok so that was homecoming...hope you enjoyed those pictures. Anywho...I have more these next ones are from prom...

Ashlee, Me & Brook. Ashlee you are an angel! She did my hair, her hair & Brook's hair for free!!!

This is me and my other good friend Brooke. Even though we don't talk much anymore or hang out like we used to I want you to know Brookerz that I still love you w/ all my heart and I appreciate all the things you have done for me and all the times you were there for me! I will always love you and I am always here for you!

Ok so thats prom...lets see if I have anything else exciting to share *SEARCHING.....* Oh Ok I have one from graduation to share....enjoy...

Me & Heather Marie before graduation. Neither of us cried until the very end...but we were both so ready for it. She is the best friend I've ever had. I've had ok friends in the past but they always seem to disappoint me either by lying to me, being a dirty skank or by telling me that she is having sexual dreams about my boyfriend(yeah you know who you are you dumb hooker!) But the fact is that Heather & I are very much alike. We pride ourselves bitches and we love Foreigner. You're my favorite Mexi! I love you! Oh yeah I almost forgot...Lucia's lisp is Yummy!

Ok so thats all the pics for now. Now that you are caught up on my life...I'll be writing somemore, actually interesting, stuff soon. See Ya!

!Bleh!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-06T06:07:06-05:00

Ok so here I am again. I have nothing better to do so I decided to get on here and write somemore about my life. So yeah Paden and I are no longer together but he still insists upon calling me. I dunno what the deal is? He decided to break up w/ me to hang out w/ all of his new cool "friends". I guess I wasnt good enough compared to them. He made his choice so I have moved on. We were together for over 3 years and I put up w/ so much shit from him its not even funny. Like the time last summer when we broke up for a week and he had sex w/ some girl he didnt even know and he and I had never even had sex! Or how about all the nights I was there for him when he was going through extreme emotional trauma? Now Im trying to sort things out w/ someone I've admired for a long time and here comes Paden butting his head back in and kicking his foot in to stop a door that I desperately want to close. Im getting ready to go off to college and meet new guys so if things dont work the way I want them to Im not going to get discouraged. There are so many guys out there. But, I dunno, I just dont understand Paden. He made his choice and if he has a problem w/ it it's his own damn fault!

!Good Day!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-09T02:07:19-05:00

Hola! Ok so like today was totally awesome. Paden came over and we talked (like civilized human beings) for a while. Everything is looking cool w/ him. Im not saying we are going to get back together but things are looking good for both of us. On Wednesday night AJ took me to see Land of the Dead. It was pretty disgusting, no real great story line just a lot of bloody messes. He also took me out to eat at this mexican place called San Marco's. It was really yummy! Tonight Heather, Stephen, BJ, Matt & I all went to the casino. Stephen won like $250 while everyone else either broke even or in Heather's case she lost $35 :( But it was pretty fun even though now I smell like cheap cigarettes! Ick! The casino smells awful and the haze pf smoke will leave your eyes wattering and your throat dry. So yeah now Im home and Im off to take a shower. AJ & I are going to hang out tomorrow so I've got to look pretty. CIAO!

!Ouch I Broke a Nail.Seriously it Hurts!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-10T03:07:11-05:00

Ok so Monday is the day when we find out when AJ is leaving for MP school. Im totally nervous! I know he's only going to be doing training but he is going to be gone for a while and Im going to miss him so much. Also he will be stationed somewhere inevitably and Im so scared. I dont want him placed in any hot spots. Today Travis said "AJ when you go to Iraq...(there is more to this quote but I really wasnt paying much attention)" I flipped out! I told Travis not to say shit like that b/c it freaks me out! AJ just laughs at me and asks why I get so scared and freaked out. He says he'll keep in touch (and Im sure he will. He did when he went to boot camp) but Im still so afraid of being away from him. I know all of us are about ready to be going off our seperate ways and I know we all are going to different places but Im so afraid of losing AJ. He means a lot to me. He has always been the one guy who has been so good to me. He was the one I would bitch at about all my problems w/ Paden, and even though he hated hearing about it he would still listen and offer advice. I care about him a lot but relationship whise I dont see it happening but that still does not count him out as a great friend whom I care about and will worry about tremendously. :( Other than that today was pretty much like every other day. I woke up and watched Fried Green Tomatoes on TBS then Pleasantville came on after that so being the boring person that I am I watched both. After that Travis got off work and we hung out until AJ got off work at 6. We met up at Taco Bell and then we all went to see Batman Begins, which was a pretty good movie. I got home about 1:30am and then I called Paden (I really am not sure why I did but I did) He was driving home and was telling me about how he stayed the night at his friend (either it was Alex or Alice) I didnt understand really but Im hoping it was Alex b/c if he stayed the night at some skanks house I'll pretty much quit talking to him b/c I will take from that that he sleeps around w/ dirty slags. But Im pretty sure he said Alex (who I guess could still be a girl but Ill just tell myself its a male) Anywho we talked for a little bit, not really about much and he said he was going to call me tomorrow. I hate being the one thats going to be "called" Id rather be the one doing the "calling" b/c at least it gives me a little sense of control (if that makes any sense) Oh well I guess we will just see if he calls, Im sure he will b/c Im certain he's still pretty attached to me. But even if he doesnt, oh well. Ok well Im tired so Im off to get my beauty sleep. CIAO!

!No Drama!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-11T02:07:04-05:00

So today was alright. I didnt do much except go to the mall w/ my parental units, then i hung out w/ Travis & AJ (just like I always do) Nothing dramatic happened today which is totally surprising! I swear my life should be a reality tv show! I guess thats all I have to say about today....Im going to go now maybe something cooler will happen tomorrow. CIAO

!Tragedy!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-12T02:07:49-05:00

Hola! Ok so today wasnt too shabby. I stayed home most of the day just watching tv and catching up on some housework (like cleaning my sleeping chambers) All was great until Daddy got home, he was upset and I couldnt figure out why until I stepped out of my room and he met me in the hallway. Turns out all my text messages to AJ amounted up to a total of 486. So yeah that's like $50 extra on my cell phone bill. YIKES! He wasnt happy and he told me that the next time I do that he would take my cell phone away. He cant threaten something like that....it would be too tragic for me! He knows I cant live w/ out my cell phone...MY LIFE IS IN THERE! So that in mind I took him seriously. So when AJ text messaged me tonight I just simply called him back (crazy as that sounds) He was at work and I talked to him for a good hour and 45 minutes. He gets off at 2am :( and the same thing goes for tomorrow aswell but hopefully we can hang out on his days off. I love hanging out w/ him. Speaking of AJ...he hasnt found out when he is leaving but as soon as I get more information I'll be sure to post it b/c I have nothing better to do than to worry about my friends well being lol! Well Im off to do my laundry. I have way too many clothes so this may take a while! CIAO!!

!My First Time...Shooting A Gun That Is!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-14T02:07:58-05:00

Hello all! Today was pretty kick ass. First off Heather Marie called and woke me up. We talked on the cellie for about an hour and she asked me to go up to Rose State w/ her so that she could get s schedule change and so that she could sign up for a works study program up there. So we went up there tried to scope out some hot guys (no success they weren't out today I guess) After that was all taken care of we went to Wal-Mart to buy some cute car air fresheners (yes Heather and I enjoy the finer things in life) Heather bought a small blue one that clips on your vents and it has a little fan on it that spreads the scent around your car. After we installed it we couldnt get over how cute it was and we stared at it for a good 3 minutes. Ok so after we were through being entertained by that small scented device, we went and got sno cones HOORAY! I got Tiger's Blood *my favie* and Heather got some weird flavor w/ extra sour stuff. She *HEARTS* sour things. Yeah so after we got our sno cones we went to check out some rates on some apartments in Midwest City. They were all nothing Heather and I could afford so we came back into Jones and she dropped me off at me casa so she could go meet up w/ BJ. When I got home I called AJ back (he had called me while we were at WalMart) and he came over to take me shooting. Yes I fired a 9mm for the 1st time today *No Big Deal!* I was pretty scared of the gun, and I still am, but AJ taught me how to load it, aim, it and shoot it. I actually hit my target too! He said I did pretty good for my first time even though after every shot I took I would let out a little scream. However, I wore a pretty white skirt and it was so hot outside AJ had to carry me back up to the truck. A Bee almost flew up my skirt and I flipped out! My flip flops were pretty muddy so i had to ride home barefoot b/c I didnt want to get AJ's carpet dirty. His truck is way too nice. Ok so when I got home I went to take a nap I was really overwhelmed...I shot a deadly weapon and I hadn't quite recovered from the shock. I also had a headache. So when I woke up I went walking w/ my sister. Anything to get rid of my headache! We went walking and it felt good to actually get some excercise. After I got home I went to Stephen's to see his new puppy and I hung out there for a few hours. We went to Sonic and I got a Lime Slush...then I came home. My day was pretty eventful I would say. I hope I can go shooting again soon!

!Like, Totally Gross Me Out!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-15T02:07:09-05:00

So today doesn't seem to be very eventful. Yet the day has only begun. I found out some really nasty stuff yesterday that I would rather not think about. Its about a certain skank whom I used to be close friends w/ until she started telling me she was having dreams that she was having sex w/ Paden. Im sorry but when you're great friends w/ someone and you start having sexual dreams about their boyfriend why would you tell them? Not only that but why would you tell them and laugh about it like it's not a big deal? Yeah so that would be why we arent friends anymore. B/c that is real shitty. Anyway...I found out some nasty stuff between this certain girl whom I won't name, and my good friend who I care a lot about (you all know who he is) You can probably guess what I found out. Well I knew they had had "relations" before but I heard the nasty details. She is such a nasty slag! Sorry but there is no other word to describe it. I knew she slept around more than a lot when we were friends. She would cheat on her boyfriend all the time like it was no big deal, but this just put the icing on the cake. Why are girls some girls so dirty? Does no one have any self respect? How could someone just sleep w/ anyone? I do admire the sexual independence that some girls have but when it gets out of hand....it just becomes disgusting and your reputation suffers. I know that may sound superficial but I don't care. Also I'm not only talking about girls either...guys are just as bad. No one really cares anymore who they sleep w/ when it happens or under what circumstances. I'm glad I got out of that friendship when I could b/c I did not want people to assume that whatever she did I did the same. Also she was extremely jealous of me all the time. When you're close friends w/ someone shouldn't you be supportive not envious? I was there for her through so much shit and all I get in return is her jealousy and then she tells me about her having the dreams she is having sex w/ Paden. What a dirty hooker! I can't surround myself w/ people like that b/c I am better than that!

!Crazy Twists of Fate?!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-17T03:07:37-05:00

I went to the lake today....yes I know....again. I totally *heart* the lake. I've got to keep that sun kissed tan I have. Anyway, after we got back from the lake we went over to AJ's at about like 11pm and went swimming until about 1. So yeah he found out where he is going and when he is leaving. He will be leaving August 11th :( I'm so sad b/c he will be gone before I even start school. Hopefully I can spend as much time w/ him as possible b/c he wont be back until around Thanksgiving. I know we will write and he'll probably be able to call me but still, it's sad. However, he did get his time in docked from 8 years to only 3 years and 11 months remaining so he'll be out of the Army before I even graduate college! Hooray! Why is it that once things begin to work for he and I something always screws it up? We have the worst timing. I care about him a lot and I always have and he says he has always felt the same for me but it always seem that once we want to be serious about one another something always comes up.Is it fate? Are we meant to endure all the hardships to prove something? Maybe it just isnt our time. But one thing is for sure, if i do start a relationship w/ him I want it to be on a serious level. Not something like a shitty high school relationship, I want it to mean something. Oh well, all I can do right now is spend as much time w/ him as I can. I just hate how inconvenient this all is. But I dont want to rush anything if he and I are going to and are supposed to be it will be. If not at least he will always be one of my best friends.

!Big Day Tomorrow!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-20T02:07:11-05:00

So I woke up this morning w/ an extremely painful headache! I wanted to jump off a bridge and end the misery...but instead of leaving my house in my pajamas I just decided to take some Aleve...then I was ok. After that I went back to bed b/c my headache kept me up all night and I needed my beauty sleep. When I finally woke up refreshed and revived I went out to the living room and watched The Day After Tomorrow...which was pretty terrible. After watching that movie I went into my room and attempted to start packing for college...I didn't get very far b/c I found some old pictures from the trip I took to Branson w/ AJ and some other friends of ours. They were hilarious and I got side tracked. After that I got dressed and called Stephen to come get me (I dont have any gas in my car) We went to WalMart and bought Constantine. I havent seen it yet but I LOVE Keanu Reeves. He is so HOT! Anyway, tomorrow I might be getting a job w/ Travis at Piggly Wiggly (yes I know sweet name) Im excited b/c I like money. I really dont need any right now I just like to have money to $hop w/. Anyway...I believe we are going to the lake tomorrow (again) so I have to get up early. So I guess I'd better run. CIAO!

!Drunken Phone Call!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-22T03:07:44-05:00

The days have been pretty boring. I've just been packing to go to college. Its coming up pretty quick and Im totally excited. Nothing dramatic or exciting has happened in a few days. That is really weird for me! I joined this new site that has a bunch of people from colleges around the U.S. on it. It is called TheFaceBook.com. Its pretty neat. You can see my profile here. So Yeah...last night Paden called me drunk off his ass telling me he loves me so much and he misses me so much. He was wasted! I really didnt appreciate him calling me under those circumstances. He apologized to me for the other night when he wanted to get off the phone w/ me b/c he said I had a bad attitude. He said I was acting like I was better than him....well. Yeah he was really drunk. He's never called me when he's been like that before so it kind of made me mad. How disrespectful. But he kept telling me he loves me so much and misses me and he only thinks of me (I think that was just the alchohol talking) I have never called him when I have been tipsy. He said the only reason he was drinking was b/c I got drunk at a party w/ out him so he was going to get drunk w/ out me. Whatever the hell thats supposed to mean. Anywho...I've got to run. I have to go shopping for some clothes I can wear at my new job. I start Sunday so TTYL! CIAO!

!Perfect Situation!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-23T01:07:31-05:00

Tonight AJ is taking me out to see either The Island or The Devil's Rejects. I kind of wanna see both but I love to watch scary movies w/ him (I'm sure everyone knows why) Anyway...Paden wants me to go have breakfast w/ him today. Im not sure if that's a good idea. Why does he even still talk to me? Why does he get jealous when I tell him about all the fun I've been having? He's the one that broke up w/ me! I don't understand guys! Same applies for AJ. I don't understand him either! I know he will be leaving very soon, and I want to spend as much time w/ him as possible...but I really feel that we aren't going to get anywhere. Not saying I'm going to sleep w/ him or anything I just mean I really don't think I'll have a relationship w/ him beyond just a friendship (which is shitty) Oh well. But back to the Paden thing...I just don't get him. He gets so jealous at all the stuff I've been doing and it's like he is trying to hold on, but I dunno why b/c he broke up w/ me. He calls me all the time and sometimes he is very sweet but then again a lot of other times he acts shitty. (And he says I'm the one w/ the bad attitude) The only reason I give him attitude is b/c that's my only defense against him. I don't want to fall for him so easily again. I don't want him to think he has me so easily. I try to act like a bitch to let him know he needs to fight a lot harder to get me back (that is if he even wants me, which by the way things are going it sure as hell seems like it) Oh well I don't want to rush anything. Also today I was going through some old papers from school and I found some old notes from Christy. I cracked up laughing! We had so many good times during our friendship and sometimes I wish we were still friends. But then I remember what happened to cause us not to be friends. I do wish we were still friends right now though. She WAS there for me during the hardest time in my life and she did go to Stroud w/ me to help me take care of some business! She was there for me every night and every step of the way. I do miss her so much. I've been debating on whether to call her or not. I dunno quite yet. I would like to patch things up w/ her b/c I miss her. Don't get me wrong I love Heather...she's my chica, but there are just so many things Christy and I have shared since like 1st grade and there are jokes and memories that I only have w/ her, and I miss them. I dunno what I will do. I may or may not call her. I just dont know.

P.S.I really want the new Weezer CD b/c I found the best song! It's called "Perfect Situation" on the CD Make Believe. Listen to it at XSAO.net

!Surprise Surprise!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-25T02:07:37-05:00

So AJ and I went to see The Devil's Rejects. I really liked it! We went to Chili's before the movie and I had some shrimp in Alfredo penne pasta *Yum* Anywho...we were out for quite a while and he brought me home then it was straight to bed w/ me b/c I had to get up at 5:30 am to get ready to go to work at 7am. So I worked today until 1 *easy stuff* then I came home and took a nap. I was so tired. After my nap Paden called me. He told me to call him sometime this week whenever I want to hang out. I said ok. I miss him. Im not going to lie. I miss him very much but mostly I miss the old Paden.I dont like the person he has become and it seems that sometimes when I am w/ him he lets the old....REAL Paden come out and its awesome. But then I can tell when he leaves he has to put back on his show for his friends b/c he seems to be their little puppet and he'll do anything they want of him just so that they will remain his friends. It's shitty but hey he chose them over me. Oh well! SO yeah anyway....back to AJ. I had a lot of fun w/ him last night (No not like that either I know what you're thinking) We just spent time together...but Im not for certain if you would classify it as a "romanitc" date or just a "friend" date. We didnt kiss or anything *I wanted too sort of but I really can't tell w/ AJ* But oh well. I need to spend as much time w/ him as possible but its going to be hard since I have a job now and all. Im trying desperately to get him to watch The Notebook w/ me. The Notebook is totally my life! I totally relate! He said he might. AJ NEVER watches chick-flicks. But before he leaves he WILL watch The Notebook w/ me. I told him I wouldnt tell his friends lol! He said he didnt care. Anyway...his last day of work is the 28th which is on I believe Thursday but he has every Wednesday and Thursday off so his last day is actually Tuesday. Hooray! Anyway...I have to work tomorrow but I am off Tuesday so I may go up to his work and surprise him. I sometimes go up there and see him when he is working to talk to him and keep him company. Its pretty cool. So I may do that Tuesday night. We'll see....well got to run See Ya!Ciao!

!To Call or Not To Call!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-26T05:07:51-05:00

Well today is pretty uneventful. I didn't have to work today...but I do go in tomorrow from 2-8. Anyway...In a recent entry I was talking about getting back in contact w/ a "friend" whom I haven't talked to much b/c of certain situations and things that this friend said. I've really been thinking hard about this one. I feel that I should not hold what she said agaisnt her b/c knowing her for over 10 years, I should have expected something like that to come from her. She is not the most tactful of all people and I should realize that her intentions may not, and probably weren't malicious. However, she should have realized that telling your best friend that you're having inappropriate dreams about their boyfriend is very unacceptable. Anyway, I've decided to put that behind me b/c well, Paden and I are no longer together I've realized I should not let the past consume my emotions. I talked this over w/ my mom and she told me it would probably be best if i was going to call Christy, to call her after AJ leaves. Christy still likes AJ a lot, and she would be hurt and/or jealous that he and I are sharing so much time together. I think my mom is right. I will wait until he leaves just so that there is no more tention added to whats already going to be present. Also, she knew how much i cared about AJ but yet she still proceeded to proposition him. But I'm not like that. I'm not going to rub what I have w/ AJ in her face b/c I'm like her. Anyway,I dunno if i should even call her but if I do....I really don't know what to say.

!Cute Little Things!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-28T02:07:30-05:00

I found a few little things online that represent me best. Here they are...enjoy....

!Superficiality, My Way Of Life!

blahnikbella — 2005-07-29T04:07:01-05:00

Ok I feel extremely superficial after reading one of my friend's blogs. Geeze...I never write anything thought provoking or anything even close to being intellectual. I'm sure I have the capabilities, but I'd rather bitch about the constant drama that occurs on my life instead. I find it more interesting. If none of you do then....sorry. This is a time when I evaluate the kind of person I am. Don't get me wrong...I like reading things that make my wheels start turning...sometimes but, I'm a drama queen through and through so the stuff that interests me is stuff like this. The meaningless crap and happenings that go on in other people's lives.LOL! I guess that's why I like reality shows. Anywho...if you're looking of anything insightfull or poetic...this is the wrong place. I like reading about other people's lives and my way of venting is to let everyone know what is happening in mine. Ok anyway, now that I have made myself feel better b/c I never really have anything smart to say...I'll get on with my entry. SO yeah I get new tires on my car today. I haven't been able to drive my car in days and I'm so excited about getting my new tires! See...my 2 front tires were almost completely bald *I know... Shame on Me!* and my car's stearing was acting up. So my Daddy *yeah I call him "Daddy"... so what??* took them off revealing a large warped bulb on my driver's side front tire that was causing my car to drift to the right. So tomorrow he's going to take my 2 bad tires in so he can buy 2 new ones. I'm so excited b/c then I can start driving my wonderful car again!! Yeah Paden got really upset w/ me since I, and I quote..."Never answer [his] phone calls" Pft! I never answer his phone calls but I do always call him back. In plus why should I owe him an explaination? He broke up w/ me...it's not like Im his girlfriend or anything so why does he care? He told me he was going to quite calling me and if I wanted to talk to him then I could call him....yeah right give it like 3 days and he'll call me. Ok well tonight I'm probably going to Heather's. I dunno what we are going to do but we haven't hung out in almost 2 weeks so we are going to get together and have a girl's night. That's if it's not interrupted by AJ or BJ....ok and/or Paden. But yeah I'm totally excited to get my new tires on!! Now that I have a pretty good job...i can uy more clothes as well...so things are looking up for me! Hooray!

!Crazy Couple of Days!

blahnikbella — 2005-08-03T04:08:30-05:00

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days but I've been pretty busy. Ok so yeah like Monday was Travis's birthday and there was a big party for him. A lot of people were there. However, some friends of mine pulled me aside and made some things apparent to me conscerning Travis. I had no idea Travis was so crazy about me. Honestly, I knew maybe he had a little crush but he never made it seem like anything more, but my friends explained to me that Travis comes off as being down right creepy. :( They told me he was obsessed and acted strangley about me. They told me a little crush was cool they could understand that but that Travis's "obsession" was getting out of hand. At the party Heather was having a "moment" (concerning BJ of course) and she wanted to leave very badly. So being a good friend not wanting Heather to drive off alone and in tears I offered to go w/ her. Travis flipped. He kept telling me I shouldnt leave b/c of BJ and I explained to him that that just wasnt the case. He replied "But it's my Birthday!" I told him I understood and I was sorry but Heather was in bad shape. Meanwhile Stephen was talking to Heather telling her to just grab me and leave b/c Travis was being annoying and creepy. So I finally got away and Heather & I went over to Jess's house. After about an hour of Heather's constant crying Jess & I finally were able to calm her down and cheer her up. After that was accomplished Heather took me back over to the party. This is where it gets interesting. So yeah I walked into the house and the first thing that happens is I get my rear end groped by some strange drunk guy I have never met in my life. Stephen wigged out! Stephen walks right up to this guy and infront of everyone yells "Hey fucker! Did you grab her ass?" The guy denied it but Stephen bitched him out and called him a liar until he admitted to it. He told Stephen..."They told me to do it" and he pointed to AJ and a group of guys. I was pissed. AJ is such a piece of shit for that. He was acting like an ass face the whole night and he pissed me off beyond repair by telling the drunk guy to grab my ass. How dare he disrespect me! His excuse was that he was drunk and I couldn't hold it againt him b/c he was under the influence. Can't hold it against him?? Watch me! Anyway this guy who grabbed my ass told Stephen he would have Ryan McCurdy on his side. Well Ryan showed up later and told the guy that yeah he was cool with him but it's NOT cool to touch my ass and that he'd kill him if he did it again. Thanks Ryan! He's a large fellow and extremely strong. But I also have to give most of the credit to Stephen for stepping up and defending me like that. Now that's a good friend! However AJ is a certified douche bag! I am so pissed at him right now!!!Just in time for him to leave too. He leaves next week. So I guess we'll be parting on bad terms. Anyway...so I called Paden to night and spilled to him about everything. I told him I miss him and I would like it if things could work out but I understood that they couldnt just be perfect that we'd have to work and prove to each other that we each have improved on our bad points and the only way of doing that it by just being friends for starters. I feel sort of stupid for saying all of that b/c he didn't seem to care. He didnt say really anything the whole time. I feel stupid. I should have never said anything. I should have just left it the way it was. I'm not even sure if I want to actually get back w/ him. I hate being the person begging for the relationship to continue. I don't do that! I don't even think he misses me. He says he does and that he'll always love me but I'm not so sure he does. I feel vulnerable and stupid and I feel like I made a huge mistake. I wish I could take it back, but it's to late now.

P.S. I was told by several people that I have a striking resemblance to Eva Longoria *grin* She's so pretty and she's like my favorite actress. That made me feel really good about myself!

!Don't You Ever Call Me Again!

blahnikbella — 2005-08-07T03:08:17-05:00

The day after I confessed all that stupid stuff to Paden (which now I realize was a HUGE mistake) while I was at work he text messaged me saying "I heard you like AJ and want to do stuff w/ him" My first thought was..."Stuff?" Anyway I replied by saying "Who told you that" and he said "Brooke". I started to laugh. I told him "I havent talked to her in months" and he said "I guess she heard it from Jess". Anyway whoever told him really wasn't the case...the problem was that it was none of his business to begin w/. Anyway...he then text me saying "Also where you trying to get w/ Greg?" *RECAP: Greg is one of Paden's best friends and when Paden & I first broke up like in the middle of April Heather, Brooke & I would call him just to piss Paden off* I told him the truth I replied..."I was just trying tp piss you off". Which I figured Paden knew about all of this because he had asked me about it before like in late April. He replied promptly "Well it worked! Forget about you and me!" I was baffled. Why was he getting so upset about something that happened months ago? He then text me again saying "Don't worry about me I've been dating a girl for about 2 1/2 months now" I quickly responded "Then why the hell do you keep calling me? Don't you ever call me again." Paden then said "Ok You Got It!" LOL that didnt last long b/c like 3 hours later he text me saying "Im so sorry for being such a dick earlier" I didnt reply to that message. I figured it was a waste of my time. How does he have any right to get mad at me about the stuff I say about AJ when he's been "dating" a girl for 2 1/2 months. Why is he constantly callijg me telling me he loves me and misses me? Why does he tell me he wants to kiss me and hold me like he used to? Thats bullshit! If he is indeed seeing someone else then he is not being fair to her by telling me all these things. What a creepy bastard. So anyway like 2 days went by and I still did not respond to his text message which drove him to call me this morning at about 2:30am. I of course did not answer but he left a message saying "I'm just calling to see if we will ever talk again. Call me back when you get this" Well I think I made it clear when I said "Don't you ever call me again!" I think he has a problem w/ listening or something. I dunno. Sometimes I want to call him back but then again I want him to know how shitty it was for him to start getting pissed off at me about AJ when he has had a girl for 2 1/2 months. I know its juts b/c he is jealous of AJ. I laid everything on the table for him the other night and all he did was shit on it. I'm F-ing PISSED.

PS. I just bought the new Gorillaz CD. I can't stop listening to "Feel Good Inc."

!Waiting For November!

blahnikbella — 2005-08-11T02:08:45-05:00

So AJ is off to Fort Knox in Kentucky :( We spent all day Tuesday together just he & I until about 9:00 when we went over to Stephen's to meet up w/ the rest of our friends to go to IHOP. We stayed out until like 4am. I didn't want to see him go. I did not kiss him or anything (even though I REALLY wanted to) I just waved goodbye and he promised to write. I know he will. I miss him so much. I really care for him so much it's incredible. I am so proud of him! When he gets back he promised to buy me these little teddy bears we saw on base at the PX. They were little Army bears, they had little fatigues on and everything. He said he would get me one as soon as he got back. I'm going to send him pictures and all while he is there so he doesnt forget about me lol! Anyway while we were waitng outside of IHOP on Kyle and the rest of our friends, Paden drove by. I almost passed out. He always finds some way to ruin everything! He didnt stop or anything but Im pretty sure he saw us. I am not speaking to him as of right now b/c I'm still very upset about his recent actions. He called me repeatedly and then text messaged me saying "When you get over yourself and swallow your pride...call me" What does that mean? What should I do about him? UGH! Anyway I can't wait for AJ's first letter. I care about him so much. Even though he and I are not officially together, it's like we are. I can't wait until November when he gets back!! Hurry up November!

PS. Any thoughts on what I should do about my shitty ex please feel free to let me know.

!College Costs So Much!

blahnikbella — 2005-08-13T02:08:26-05:00

Today was very eventful. I woke up about 10:00 and got ready. I picked up Stephen and we went up to the high school (Bleh! Boy am I glad to be out of there) to get my transcript. After picking up my transcript we headed up to UCO and I turned it in. I also bought all of my books which ended up costing about $400 for 4 books. Phooey...books are expensive. I also turned in my AP test credit sheet so I can recieve credit for passing my AP tests. After that we went out to eat at CiCi's and then I was off to the bank to deposit a check my cousin sent me. I came home, took a tiny nap an then I went out again. I bought a new shirt and some other essentials for college. I'm so excited b/c Tuesday is the big day. It's move in time! Im pretty much all set to go I just need to pack away all my clothes *That could take forever* Oh well. I can't wait to get my first letter from AJ. I'll let you know as soon as it comes in!

!And So It Begins!

blahnikbella — 2005-08-21T08:08:15-05:00

I moved into my apartment! I totally love college! I've already been to like 4 parties in the short while I have been there and I've made so many new friends. My roomates kick ass! I probably won't be writing much b/c I'll be really busy but don't worry I will still keep everyone informed. *Like anyone cares* I'm so glad I get along w/ my roomates. Dominique(19), Jill(20) & Alie(18) are so awesome! It's been a blast partying and getting to know all of them. We click so well. Even though I have met so many new people I haven't forgotten about my old friends. Heather, BJ, Reggie & Rena all came out to a party w/ us last night. It was AWESOME! I start actual classes tomorrow, so I'm kind of nervous but I think it will be cool. I'll write more as soon as I have more time! Oh and....still no letters from AJ :(

!Sorry!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-19T07:09:33-05:00

Ok I'm like so incredibly sorry for not updating since school started. It's been crazy! UCO is pretty awesome, I've made so many new friends and things just keep getting better and better. I had an epiphany a few nights ago...I realized that I do not want to have anything to do with Paden anymore. I am completely ready to drop him and finally have an actual relationship with AJ. AJ gets back on November 4th (the day before his birthday) from Kentucky and I cant wait. I never ealized how much I need him until a few nights ago. I always knew I cared a lot about him but as creepy and cliche'd as it might sound....I think I love him. *Shh Don't tell him I dont want him to get creeped out* He calls me everynight from Ft. Knox and talks to me until I fall asleep. I know all of you are probably saying "How Sweet" but nothing is "Sweet" between AJ and I. Everything is so unspoken and we both know how much we care for one another but we aren't likely to tell each other. AJ is so interesting and I just cant get enough of him. You'd think that after 7 years of having just a crush on someone, you would get over them but to me it seems like more than a crush.Things are looking up! Anyway...I've seen a few people that I graduated with. A lot of people I know go to UCO...but I try to ignore most of them. 2 girls inparticular. They say "Hi" to me and it's embarassing. They look like such trash and Im ashamed to know them. I know that sounds really shitty but I don't want to aknowledge them b/c it makes me look bad. Horrible...I know. I shouldnt be that way but most people who know these girls would agree with me. Maybe even find it funny. Oh well...I should be updating more now that I finally got my computer into my apartment.

!Rock N Roll Hoochie Koo!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-21T05:09:19-05:00

Ok so the title has no relation to this entry whatsoever, I just so happen to be listening to that song because it makes me dance. So anyway...class was easy today, as it is most days. I did skip my economics class because he never takes role and Its hella boring. AJ hasnt text or called me in a few days. It's cool though I've been sort of busy and I haven't had much time to do anything. So the homecoming at my high school is in a few weeks. September 30th to be exact. Yeah it brings back memories. *tear* LOL no but really being in homecoming was probably the funnest part of my senior year. Everything else was complete drama. I'm excited to go back but I have a feeling after this game I won't be back in town for a long time. I dont want to look like one of those has-beens that everyone makes fun of. A lot of my friends from college are going to come with me so I'm excited to let my old friends meet the new additions. Ok I would now like to take a moment and retract my earlier statement about never talking to Paden again. I realized that that is something totally unrealistic. We were so afraid that after high school we would never see each other again...but we run into each other all the time. I dont want to be back w/ him ever but I think it is nice to know that we will always be friends. Maybe not close friends but just good enough so when we run into each other it isnt awkward and I can take comfort in the fact of knowing that a huge brawl won't break out.

Ok that being said. Thank you to a certain friend of mine who said some extremely sweet things to me in my last post. It really encourages me and makes me feel awesome when I know have support!

Anywho...got to run. Im going to see Stephen tonight. LOL I love that guy. I'll see ya'll later!

!Caught in a Landslide!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-22T03:09:50-05:00

I just got out of Biology. I have yet another test in there on Tuesday. Hooray! *Note:Sarcasm* Anyway, today has been pretty sweet. Except for the fact that im ultra tired *yawn* I didn't get to be until 3 am and then I had to wake up at 8:30 :( Oh well I'll be able to sleep good tonight! Last night I went over to Kyle and Sam's with Stephen. Yeah Sam is a cool guy! *Note: Sarcasm yet again* He's pretty much worthless. He doesn't work, or do anything for that matter. I really just wanted to se Kyle. Kyle and I have a strange relationship. We are kind of like brother and sister. But yeah when I was over there, he asked me if Paden and I were back together. I said "no why?" He said he talked to Jade (Paden's sister whom Kyle also used to date for those of you who didn't know) and she said that Paden told her we were trying to work things out. Huh? I wasn't informed that we were working on anything. I thought we were cool where we are at. This confused me. I told Kyle that that wasn't the case. I told him that getting back with Paden was the last thing on my mind. He said "Yeah I figured b/c I know how you and AJ are right now" I was like "Yeah" I asked Kyle "Do you really think AJ is interested in me" (already knowing that the answer would be yes I still like to be reassured) Kyle replied, to my suprise, "AJ loves you" I was like "Did he say that?" Kyle was like "No but everyone can see it. He gives no girl the same attention and respect that he gives you" That made me feel awesome. My other friend Billy. Some of you may know him, he went to school with us forever until like our Senior year he went to Choctaw. Anyway he told me he wouldnt be suprised if AJ and I got married. I was kind of like "Whoa...let's not go that far" but once I started thinking about it, I really would not mind marrying AJ at all, I think I even like the idea. But I don't like to talk like that b/c that's how you freak people out. Anyway, I'm pretty excited about going to homecoming. I would like to see some people and I can't wait for everyone to meet my new friends. I don't think I've changed much so, but I think that's a good thing :) Well I better go. I should probably go take a nap before I go over to my friend O.J.'s. (What's w/ me and guys w/ acronyms for names? AJ, OJ? LOL)

!My Gosh My Life is Awesome!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-25T07:09:19-05:00

After this weekend I'm really convinced that my life is great. No, nothing extraordinary occured this weekend, I just simply sat around pondering. I came to the conclusion of "My Gosh I Love My Life!" I have a great number of friends already but I seem to only be gaining more by the minute up at UCO. Im surrounded by people who encourage and support me no matter what. Also things w/ Paden are better than they ever were when we were together. We are, as in the words of Gwen Stefani..."Cool", and my roomates and I are totally becomming more like sisters. I feel so great. Im healthy, happy and able....what else can I ask for? I pretty sure I'm ready to take on the world!

!Confidence? Or Self Absorbed?!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-26T02:09:02-05:00

Ok so there is this guy name Jeramy who lives across from my sister at Central Plaza here at UCO. He is super annoying b/c the only thing he can talk about is wrestling. Yes he is a wrestler here at the great University of Central Oklahoma, but it gets down right annoying when he constantly boasts about how great of a wrestler he is. Ugh! So yeah this guy totally starts taking an interest in me and he comes over to my sister and Danielle's (my sister's roomate obviously) to see me EVERYTIME I'm over there. Ok, thats not so bad...except he introduces me to his roomate OJ. OJ is hilarious and cute I might add. So OJ and I hit it off and we get along so well. Seeing how OJ & I get along, Jeramy becomes jealous and angry. He tells OJ he "stole" me from him. *I don't believe I was ever his in the first place* Ok so that made me laugh. OJ just brushed it off...not a big deal right? No, Jeramy then sedns me a message on facebook saying that he likes me more than I think. Yeah right! I did some research on this guy. He has slept with over 14 girls and uses his "wrestling" conversation to win them over. Puh! Ok so the other night I was over at OJ & Jeramy's, watching Room Raiders w/ OJ when Jeramy came in. He said "Hey Erica" I was like "Hi Jeramy". He walks over to his bed and tells me "Just to let you know, Im not interested in you." I was thinking to myself "What the F*ck? I don't care" My immediate reaction was to start laughing. Then once my amusement was over I looked at him and he looked hurt. So I said "What are you talking about?" He said..."I don't like girls like you. You're conceided" I said "How in the hell am I conceided? Is it because I turned you down? Seeing is how the only girls you can get are those w/ low self esteem" He stared at me. Then said.."I can get all kinds of girls! I called like 15 girls tonight and 3 of them said they would go out w/ me on Friday!" I then replied "3 out of 15...those are GREAT percentages there Jeramy!" OJ...(trying to stay out of the whole confrontation due to the fact that he has to live w/ Jeramy for the rest of the year) he began to crack up laughing. He said "Im sorry Bagby (Jeramy's last name) but she got you there" Ok so a this point Jeramy is infuriated b/c his "game" didn't work w/ me. I'm a pretty girl w/ class and I shot him down. But why on earth did he call me conceided? Im very confident w/ myself and I have good self esteem and all but it's not like I am always talking about how great I am. Yes I walk w/ my head up. I always have. I think Jeramy tried to bite off more than he could chew w/ me. I think the way I look on the outside is very misleading to how I really am on the inside. I'm strong willed and stubborn and I feel comfortable enough in myself to say "NO" even to cool UCO wrestlers.

!Hold Me!

blahnikbella — 2005-09-28T12:09:58-05:00

I recently purchased the new Weezer cd entitiled "Make Believe". One of the songs on the CD is called "Hold Me" and I think it is what best describes how I am feeling right now. I'm sure you all can put it together as to why I feel like this. Anyway here are the lyrics:

Hold Me

I am terrified of all things.
Frightened of the dark.
I am.
You are taller than a mountain.
Deeper than the sea.
You are.

Hold me.
Hold me.
Take me with you 'cause I'm lonely.

I was closer to you back then.
I was happier.
I was.
You are fading further from me.
Why don't you come home to me?

Hold me.
Hold me.
Take me with you 'cause I'm lonely.

I am...
I am...
Cold.

Hold Me.

[solo]

Hold me.
Hold me.
Take me with you 'cause I'm lonely.
Hold me.
Hold me.
Take me with you 'cause I'm lonely.
Hold me.
Hold me.

!Dirty Whore is Back...Maybe!

blahnikbella — 2005-10-06T03:10:24-05:00

Ok you all remember the tragedy in which happened between Paden and I last summer? When we broke up for a month and he got drunk and slept w/ some skank named Brandy from Stroud...well not only did he do that but she tooks his virginity, and we didnt share it together like we had planned to for so long. And so in retaliation I went up to Stroud and vandalized her car. Ok anyway, this Brandy skank used to work with me at Frontier City last summer. Well her best friend named Ashlea did aswell. Now Ashlea and I got along great b/c Ashlea truly is a sweetheart. Ok well I was on Facebook the other day searching around and I found Ashlea's profile. I was like "Woo Hoo" b/c I always thought she was so sweet. So I friended her and messaged her saying "I remember you we worked at Frontier City together" She replied "Yeah I remember you how are you?" Well after a little bit of conversation she said she had moved down here to some apartments by Quail Springs Mall so that she could take classes here at UCO. I was like "awesome", right then it clicked...Is she still friends w/ Brandy? Last summer they both lived w/ Ashlea's sister so they could work at Frontier City so I immediately thought Does Brandy live w/ her? So I casually asked her "Do you have any roomates? I have like 3 but they are all cool" and she said "Yeah I live w/ my best friend" She didnt give a name but I can only assume its the whore! Ok so I flipped. Even though this all happened like a year ago it still hurts a lot and Im still incredibly furious over the whole thing even though Paden and I are no longer together I still feel as though this is an issue of pride. She humiliated me, and NO ONE does that to me! Well I never asked her roomates name all I did was say "Oh that's cool. Does your roomate go to UCO too?" Ashlea said "No she's taking a year off to work then she'll be going here next year" Ok so I told Ashlea..."Well hey girl we need to hang out sometime I always like hanging out w/ you at work" Ashlea replied "Yeah we totally need to here is my number give me a call anytime" I really want to know if it's that Brandy whore b/c if it is Oh my gosh there is going to be hell to pay! Im going to have to regulate and I know it. But then Im also like if its not I really dont care either b/c Ashlea is cool by herself. But odds are it's probably her. Im trying not to get my hopes up LOL! Well anyway Im not quite sure what Im going to do so any advice will be greatly appreciated :)

!He's Back!

blahnikbella — 2005-10-10T02:10:46-05:00

Well...I have got to quit skipping my Economics class. I have a test in there on Wednesday but I havent been to class since last Wednesday. Its a MWF class and he doesnt take role but thats why it makes it so easy to skip. I've got to stop. Anyway...AJ is back. Well he is in Texas as on right now but some crazy shit has happened to him. He got kicked out. Yes...you heard right, he is out of the Army. It's an incredibly long and a hurtful story. Im so disappointed. I've told him and he said he understands why I am that he is pissed off at himself for what he did and he wishes he could take it back. I know you all are wondering..."what the hell happened?" Lets just say AJ's temper got the best of him and for that a guy is in the hospital. So yeah AJ was stamped with a Dishonorable Discharge and now he is in Texas visiting family until the end of October. When he gets back we've already decided to take a sort of mini vacation and go spend a weekend together in Dallas. Shopping, going to museums and stuff like that. I can't wait its been a long awaited getaway. He and I have a lot to talk about so we are going to get a hotel and just chill out for a weekend. Away from everyone.

!Life is Great & much too Short!

blahnikbella — 2005-10-13T12:10:35-05:00

Today has been great. Nothing amazing has happened, just one of those beautiful days that people take for granted. It all started this morning when I woke up. I felt completely refreshed. (something uncommon for me) Ok so as I was getting ready to go to my 12 o'clock class (Economics) I was listening to some Led Zeppelin as I always do in the morning, thinking about how terrible I was going to do on the test which was today. Well after I was ready I left my apartment and the weather felt amazing. So as I was walking to class I was soaking in as much of the day as I could b/c I knew I was going to be in a stuffy classroom for most of the day. I walked into my Economics class and saw Landon (this guy who sits next to me and skips more than I do). I said "Oh my gosh I'm totally going to fail this exam!" He looked at me and said "Actually everyone said he moved it back until Friday" I was like "No Freakin' way!" He said "Yeah way" I was so excited, seeing is how I did not study for this test b/c last night I was up late studying for my Biology lab exam. So Landon told me the wise thing to do would to skip Econ. and just go study for my Lab Exam which was today as well. So I did. And Im very glad I did. I sat on a bench outside of the Business building. The bench was underneath a tree so there was a little shade but since it was still crisp out I sat in the unshaded portion so soak in the sun. I sat on that bench for about 45 minutes and studied. I was still so nervous as I headed to Howell Hall where my Bio Lab is, but as I was walking up the stairs I found a little Lady Bug on my sweater. I took that as a good sign. Well the exam went well. I think I did better than I thought I would, so no complaints here. I was in such a good mood on my way back across campus. I just kept thinking "What a beautiful day" The only thing missing were all the people in my life whom I love dearly. Ok so when I got back to my apartment, I got online and I felt the urge to let all of the people in my life know how much I really do love them. I felt that today I had no opinions I just wanted everyone to know that I do love and think about them whether they believe it or not. I do keep everyone in mind and I love everyone. This wonderful day is dedicated to all my friends and family that I love dearly. I feel my life would never be as meaningful if I did not have my friends. I love you all. All of you know who you are and I hope that you all are as content with how your lives are going as I am. If not remember that I love you and will always keep you in my prayers! I *Heart* you all!

!New Pictures!

blahnikbella — 2005-10-16T03:10:10-05:00

I have a bunch of new pictures. Check them out
HERE Click On LOOK AT ALL THE FUN WE ARE HAVING

!Halloween Party @ My Place!

blahnikbella — 2005-10-28T03:10:46-05:00

Ok so sorry for not updating in a while. Sammie shamed me into updating. Anywho, things have been pretty good. AJ still isnt home but he should be soon. When? Im not positive but I just know I cannot wait. Also Fall Break has come and gone...I'll be honest I partied most of the break. I had a great time! Jill came home from New Jersey w/ a "boxers fracture". She walked through the door Sunday with a cast and sling. I flipped out. She got really upset w/ her parental units and punched a wall, thus breaking her knuckles. Owie! Well Tuesday night she was in a lot of pain b/c she had gone grocery shopping. Well I was helping her bring in her groceries and when she was taking her coat off she twisted her broken hand and she immediately sat down and grabbed it in pain. So I packed her up and took her to the Emergency Room at Edmond Regional. They readjusted her splint and took somemore X-Rays to make sure she didnt move anything, which she didnt. They gave her somemore pain pills and then sent her home. She hasnt gone to class all week due to the fact that she has been so drugged up on pain pills she can barely get off the couch.
Saturday is the big day. Halloween Party at my place! Ben Collins, a guy who I used to go to school w/ came up from Austin, Texas yesterday to see us all and party w/ us for the weekend. He is so awesome! I absolutely love Ben! It's so nice seeing him. It's been like 6 years since I last saw him. We are having a bunch of people over Saturday and I will be taking a lot of pictures. I'm going as a hooker. That aught to be a sight to see. LOL. Jill, Alie & I are going as hookers and Travis is going to be our pimp. HA HA. Ill be sure to post the pics ASAP.

!Best Suprise EVER!

blahnikbella — 2005-11-01T01:11:11-05:00

The party was awesome! Guess who showed up and suprised me! Yeah....I'll give you 2 guesses but your only going to need one....yeah it was AJ. He had to go back but he said he'll be home very soon. Yeah so my weekend was awesome!!! Woo Hoo Check out the pics HERE click on "Halloween 05"

!Travis Got Drunk!

blahnikbella — 2005-11-15T01:11:04-05:00

My life is going so amazing right now! AJ and I are unofficially together. We don't like the title "Boyfriend/Girlfriend" but we are both unavailable. I adore him so much! This is the happiest I think that I have ever been. I love my friends, my family and I are getting a long great, and I feel fabulous! School isnt all that great, but who likes school anyway? I feel like this is a fresh beggining for me and I finally have the one I've always wanted. Im on top of the world! Anyway, I have some more pics from a party this weekend. Can you believe it...Travis Cook actually got drunk. It was hilarious! He made a bet that if OSU beat Texas Tech on Saturday he would get wasted, he made that bet b/c he was confident that OSU would lose....they won, 24-17. It was an amazing game. Travis and I went to it. So he kept w/ his part of the bet and got wasted. Check out the pics HERE and click on 11-12-05 Party!

!Off The Market!

blahnikbella — 2005-11-22T12:11:40-05:00

Sorry fellas, but I've recently been taken off the market. That's right I am now officially w/ AJ. I'm a full time girlfriend now and I'm so happy! My life couldnt get any better! It feels so good to finally be w/ him. Its been something a long time in the making. As any of you that have actually read all of my entries can tell i absolutely adore AJ. He means so much to me and I know that I mean the same to him, finally saying that he is mine and I am his is so refreshing. We've waited 4 years for this and now its here and its everything I expected it to be. He spoils me so much and I know in my own way I spoil him aswell. We have dropped the past and moved on to a mature and deep relationship w/ one another. Life is grand!

!New Pics!

blahnikbella — 2005-11-30T05:11:01-05:00

Once again I have some new pics for all to see. Check out the pics HERE and click on Saturday!

!Best Gift Ever!

blahnikbella — 2005-12-09T03:12:27-05:00

Ok so the end of the semester is fast approaching! I cant wait. Im glad to finally get this first portion out of the way. Also Christmas is almost here! WOO HOO! I recently purchased AJ's Christmas present, its something he has wanted for a long time. I got him an Akita puppy. He's AKC registered and everything! He hasn't gotten his name quite yet, we are waiting to see his personality before we name him. He's adorable!

AJ was incredibly excited about him. He has wanted an Akita for SO long and now he finally has one. I guess I did a good job on the gift! :)

Ok so now onto other things, I've been so stressed out lately, with finals coming up and worrying about my grades. UGH! But this is was is expected in college. My schedule for next semester is way less strenuous due to the fact that I wont be taking a science, thus I do not have to enroll in a 2 hour lab. Yea! Also AJ's mom and dad will be returning from Hawaii soon, so we are going to run out of places to party seeing is how Im staying in Jones for Christmas Break and I have to turn my key in. Oh well, we'll manage Im sure. Also my ex wont leave me alone. He sends me emails, text messages and calls professing his undying love for me. (Bullshit!) *cough* Yeah well, since 'tis the season, I sent him a message saying "Good luck with everything, have a safe holiday and a good life" I hope he doest take that as an invitation to be married. Thats just how he is. I've really moved on, and Im well aware that there will always be something shared between Paden and I, but Im finished with that chapter and Im ready to explore new options. Anyway, I better be going I have to get ready AJ is taking me to see Syriana tonight and Im thinking I may drag him into Jones or something to see my parentals w/ me. He He! Ok well I'll leave you with one of my favorite songs right now. Not really my favorite music video, but I do love the song. Ciao!

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